dep·ri·va·tion:
- the lack or denial of something considered to be a necessity.
You’ll notice in this post, that I stated I would stick to one (1) unhealthy, but still healthy, meal on the weekends.
Firstly, allow me to break down what this means, as it can be a little difficult to understand.
My goal was to stick to healthy eating throughout the weekday (Mon-Fri) and be a bit lenient with one meal on Saturday or Sunday. This meal came on Saturday, more than likely.
Instead of eating healthy 100%, I allow myself to have a meal that I wouldn’t usually eat throughout the week, without going off the rail.
Meaning, I would stay away from fried foods, foods that are super greasy, and most definitely, sweets (I’m currently on week 2 of the 6 weeks without sweets.)
However, as I ate my not-so-nutritious weekend meal, I battled within myself for a moment. (I ate a double decker cheeseburger from “The Cookout”, with fries and mozzarella cheese bites, btw). Here are some of the thoughts that crossed my mind;
“Why am I eating this?“
“Should I eat this?“
“What about the grilled chicken sandwich I said I was going to get?“
“Is this the start of going downward with my journey?“
I most definitely thought about the last thought. I even feared the thought and possibility.
However, as I continued to eat my meal, deprivation came to mind.
And deprivation is an old buddy/enemy of mine that I don’t want to come back to devour me or eat me alive.
From past failures, I know that if I deprive myself of what I enjoy, completely, then I won’t be happy or fulfilled on this journey.
What makes this journey different from all the other ones I’ve tried and failed on, is that I want this to be long-term. The only way for me to be on it long-term is allowance.
Allowing myself to have. Allowing myself to enjoy. Allowing myself to be imperfect, and enjoy the simple things of life. Even if it comes with unhealthy every now and then. Does this mean I will eat fried, fatty foods every weekend. Of course not. However, moderation is allowed here.
Because I’m in this for the long run.
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